Dearest ex,
On that horizon, I still find peace. The inner peace you lack. Shutting you off and focusing on the "me" had me going. I will forever be grateful to you to the memoirs, the fights, the pain, the smiles, the very core of you but right now, it is my sole journey to move on and let go.
On that horizon, I still find peace. The inner peace you lack. Shutting you off and focusing on the "me" had me going. I will forever be grateful to you to the memoirs, the fights, the pain, the smiles, the very core of you but right now, it is my sole journey to move on and let go.
At first, I was blaming myself that if I had done the things that you want, if I had only allow myself become submissive of you, if I had only given you the world, we could've stayed much longer. Now, you saw efforts on that girl, that girl whose name remained in me, that girl who is more valuable, more presentable, friendlier than I am...and then there's me. I am certain I did my part. It was you who chose to let go for reasons I know not.
But behind all the pain you've caused me, I managed to get up, fill myself with love and become more confident with myself and with my body. My soul awakened late but I found out that the restlessness of being is the awakening and rebirth of the new me. Behind all the food I missed to eat, the risks and rides I missed to take, the adventures I ought to experience, the opportunities I let go, the events I took for granted, I want you to know I am grateful, forever grateful for you. Good or bad, I thank you. After all the years of being together, our fancy dates, warm hugs, long drives, romantic walks, photoops and sweet exchange of messages and sleepless nights, we chose to separate ways and that wasn't okay...at first. Eventually, we accepted that some things are not meant to happen, so was our case.
The sun set, and we're still not together, we chose not to. However, I am very happy for what I have become and I am ecstatic to find out that our mutual friends tell me you are doing well in life, too. After the awkward chats and conversations, after bragging everything and just plain mad with each other, I have made a notion that both of us have tried yet failed. Right at this moment, I know I found peace within myself. After I forgave you, everything seems normal and I have crossed every line to finally find the genuine happiness I longed for myself.
To tell you the truth, now I am making myself whole again. There are a few dates I've been but I don't give my heart away not because I don't see myself with them but because I am enjoying my company together with the new people I met, oh and that food place I have been wanting to savour, well my tummy adores it. As an improvement, I realized I can do things alone and I am more confident with myself now. I watched movies alone and I don't see any problem with it. I became more dependent with myself and I am growing with the idea that I can handle myself maturely now.
Without bitterness, I wish you fortune and happiness and the woman you are with today. Right now, I am making time for myself, the ones I lost when we were still together. I am enjoying the peace my whole being deserves. I have faith that the two of us can grow more even when we are of different paths now. I have faith in you, that you are going to make your loved ones proud. I have faith that in order for people to grow, they have to accept changes and adjust on those. I have seen you as a blessing. You may have been my greatest heartache but you were in fact the lesson life has been knocking me out.
I have loved you, God knows how much I did. For turning your back on me, I am grateful. I found peace when I let you go. I am hoping to see you at a better phase soon!
Sincerely yours,
~the woman who conquered
But behind all the pain you've caused me, I managed to get up, fill myself with love and become more confident with myself and with my body. My soul awakened late but I found out that the restlessness of being is the awakening and rebirth of the new me. Behind all the food I missed to eat, the risks and rides I missed to take, the adventures I ought to experience, the opportunities I let go, the events I took for granted, I want you to know I am grateful, forever grateful for you. Good or bad, I thank you. After all the years of being together, our fancy dates, warm hugs, long drives, romantic walks, photoops and sweet exchange of messages and sleepless nights, we chose to separate ways and that wasn't okay...at first. Eventually, we accepted that some things are not meant to happen, so was our case.
The sun set, and we're still not together, we chose not to. However, I am very happy for what I have become and I am ecstatic to find out that our mutual friends tell me you are doing well in life, too. After the awkward chats and conversations, after bragging everything and just plain mad with each other, I have made a notion that both of us have tried yet failed. Right at this moment, I know I found peace within myself. After I forgave you, everything seems normal and I have crossed every line to finally find the genuine happiness I longed for myself.
To tell you the truth, now I am making myself whole again. There are a few dates I've been but I don't give my heart away not because I don't see myself with them but because I am enjoying my company together with the new people I met, oh and that food place I have been wanting to savour, well my tummy adores it. As an improvement, I realized I can do things alone and I am more confident with myself now. I watched movies alone and I don't see any problem with it. I became more dependent with myself and I am growing with the idea that I can handle myself maturely now.
Without bitterness, I wish you fortune and happiness and the woman you are with today. Right now, I am making time for myself, the ones I lost when we were still together. I am enjoying the peace my whole being deserves. I have faith that the two of us can grow more even when we are of different paths now. I have faith in you, that you are going to make your loved ones proud. I have faith that in order for people to grow, they have to accept changes and adjust on those. I have seen you as a blessing. You may have been my greatest heartache but you were in fact the lesson life has been knocking me out.
I have loved you, God knows how much I did. For turning your back on me, I am grateful. I found peace when I let you go. I am hoping to see you at a better phase soon!
Sincerely yours,
~the woman who conquered
Always,
Jhara
xoxo
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