On Making New Friends and Moving Forward | Backtrack and Fast Forward

My life was in limbo. And for the past months, thanking God is not enough for waking me up everyday and for making me believe that life is extra special when there are ups and downs to keep you sane. Applaud me for actually staying strong and not giving up.

I constantly believe that the world has nothing much to offer especially when you are with the love of your life who appears to be the "you are more than enough" cliche that most of us have experienced but let me tell you how I conquered realities fearlessly after the LOML scheme drifted away.

Those who know me believe that I am sociable, pretty much wanted to get to know each and everyone inside the room but after that who exactly are inside my circle of friends? Answer...No one. Yes! I don't stick with particulars mainly because I was dumped by a former bestie of mine. I find it hard to make new friends because I think they will only leave you when things go rough but this time it changed. 

The heartache I had turned out to be a blessing. How? I actually cannot figure it out but for what it's worth, I opened myself to new people. New people who bring out the cheerful Jhara again. There are special people in your life who don't seem to be helpful but actually put back your missing jigsaws. I had no plans of expanding my network but maybe God had it all planned before I can even see the sunshine at the end of the tunnel. I doubted myself at first, asking myself whether or not I am socially awkward but prayers work! I stood out.


I was wrong. I enfold myself with thoughts that drowned me to the restlessness of my soul. The world is bigger than my perspective. I thought it was limited, I thought I was limited, I thought that if I limit myself I would grow; these were all wrong. God blessed me with a special friend whom I became my companion as I unleash the affable me. I really became more confident when I got to meet new friends. These friends were not shopping buddies or gossip buddies, these are friends I connected healthily. How? They became the new people in my new life. New people to jive my butt off, to drink glasses of alcohol (which turned out that I really am not into drinking after all, I'm the hero who you can lean onto after you passed out from drinking bourbon), badminton buddies (really thought it would be awkward because these were new batch of people from all walks of life, yet again, I went through a good phase of getting my life together), cooking buddies, make up master and maybe pet peeve (I laughed so hard I did not know I was only taking chasers during the drinking sesh) and you will truly believe that Jollibee is a much happier place when you're with your friends sharing fries, cheeseburger and their juiciest, crunchiest, spicy chickenjoy!

I have never seen life this awesome. I was reborn, reborn from helplessness and hopelessness. Most of us saw rainbows before, but when you find friends and gained new friends, it's like the rainbow never fades until you're the one who resist to never see it anymore. Making new friends and redeeming yourself is actually a choice. It  is up to you. It depends on how you manage the balance of the ying and yang. It is never dependent on your surrounding. The very core of survival is not upon how many friends you have, or how many friends you gained, or how much money you spend on them or how many times you have been with them during happy times; the core of survival is knowing your identity even when they are not around, you are in the proper track even when they turned down your offer to drink tonight or play badminton; it is seeing your worth even when the world seems to be harsh on you.

You are more than the heartaches, the slaps of reality, the friends you gained or even the salary you have. You will survive if you know how to handle yourself and see how bright you shine even on the darkest of days.

Always,

Jhara

xoxo

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